Lodge Life

In October,  a visit to the historic Timberline Lodge in Oregon got me thinking about Steven King's novel, The Shining.  The film would be an obvious re-visit after a weekend stay at the Timberline, the lodge was made famous as the exterior of the Overlook Hotel, but I immediately attached to the desolation and massive scope of the location. The hotel is huge. Mount Hood is huge.  Ample space to let an active imagination run wild.  Enough isolation to allow the hotel to reveal some secrets. The film just can't touch the book when it comes to the psychological struggles people confront when completely isolated in such a massive place.

I used to write a column for a local art and culture website, Wonder and Risk. It was a labor of love by a bunch of weirdos and art lovers of all kinds, myself included. Now that the page is gone, I have decided to share a few of my articles here. I wrote about The Shining in the fall, and now that it is the dead of winter, it feels just as appropriate.
When I wrote this particular column, it was often focused on certain passages of books and offered the text with the article. Due to the size of chapter 34, I ask that you dig up a copy of the book for yourself.  I promise you will be happy with the book as a deep winter read.


The Timberline, at sunset.




Fall. The season when we celebrate fear.  As a society we really lean into it. The things that scare us are ultimately individual and somehow common altogether.  When I think about a good scare I always come back to The Shining. Everybody has seen the film. I am suggesting something else. I am suggesting that you read Stephen King’s third novel and let your mind push past the bloody elevator, room 237 and the beautiful Overlook hotel. More specifically I request that you give special attention to chapter 34, The Hedges.  


Pour yourself a whiskey, settle in with the book and wonder about a few things. First, when was the last time your mind got the best of you? On a late night walk home when footsteps behind sounded urgent?  Perhaps you looked over from your bed in the dark and the laundry draped over the chair took on a menacing shape? Ever glanced at a window to see another looking in?  Now, what if the footsteps kept on coming, the face in the window wanted into the house, and the laundry pile stood up?  This is the spot where Danny found himself in chapter 34. He wants to believe it isn't real, that his eyes and ears are tricking him. The wet thuds of snow and the feeling of total aloneness making his heart explode in his chest. Knowing that his survival is solely up to him.


That brings my next question. When was the last time you were truly alone? Honestly alone, with no one to hear you call out, no cell phone service, not another soul for miles. I know I had to think on it for a while.


Think on it. Be alone.  Read chapter 34 and see if the suggestive power and images of King’s wicked character study get into your head. Or try to keep them out.



Room 210

Blue House


Today they tore down the blue house at 435 Summit Ave E.
The smell stopped me in the street
It had rained earlier and left the pile of fir and tamarack boards,
matchsticks snapped before they lit, to get wet for the first time in sixty years.
Tired neighbors walked dogs around me and I became indignant.
They could not see it.
I was instantly lonely and wished someone would kiss me.
I entertained nonsense.
Does wood remember how rain felt
and I wonder
if that guy Paul, who lived in the blue house,
still squeezes girls waists with his hands when he hugs them.
I hate that guy for touching me like that.
And now this place with its insides out for everybody was invading me.
Dust and earth, lead based paint, half of a door,
a broken toilet, it made me quietly happy.
Reminded me of coming home to an empty house,
the pregnant promise of solitary misdeeds
a fire I could warm my hands on.
The whole lot was surrounded by a chain link fence.
I had two glasses of whiskey and walked home,  got half undressed,
and practiced all of the things I wanted to say to  you
into the mirror over the bed.




Something to warm your hands on.

Have you ever noticed how revisiting a beloved book can conjure ghosts? Not in the spiritual sense but in the form of potent memories. The kind that live in the grey area between a person’s head and heart. Sitting in stasis just waiting for the cue to be triggered into action. Deciding at the last minute whether to go up or down. Go to the head and induce personal scrutiny, travel to the heart and render flesh from bone.  The appropriate emotional response ending either way in the ruin of a perfect Manhattan. Paper stored memories.
Leo Tolstoy published The Cossacks in 1863. I first read it in 2011 after I found a copy that was translated in the 1940's. The translation isn't the best but the sweeping and tender descriptives of the Caucasus and Georgian countryside hold up beautifully. This book calls up ghosts, of the time I was reading it, the people I knew and the season. Winter.
Winter and the snowy Olympic mountains. The passage that inspires the most emotion for me being chapter three. Olenin has been traveling for days in a sledge and cart from Moscow when he finally sees the mountains.  

The mountains and the clouds appeared to him quite alike,
and he thought the special beauty of the snow peaks, of which he
had so often been told, was as much an invention as Bach's music
and the love of women, in which he did not believe. So he gave up
looking forward to seeing the mountains. But early next morning,
being awakened in his cart by the freshness of the air, he glanced
carelessly to the right. The morning was perfectly clear. Suddenly
he saw, about twenty paces away as it seemed to him at first
glance, pure white gigantic masses with delicate contours, the
distinct fantastic outlines of their summits showing sharply
against the far-off sky. When he had realized the distance between
himself and them and the sky and the whole immensity of the
mountains, and felt the infinitude of all that beauty, he became
afraid that it was but a phantasm or a dream. He gave himself a
shake to rouse himself, but the mountains were still the same.
"What's that! What is it?" he said to the driver.
"Why, the mountains," answered the Nogay driver with indifference.
"And I too have been looking at them for a long while," said
Vanyusha. "Aren't they fine? They won't believe it at home."


The delicate paragraph shown here being the turning point of his journey. So I give it as an offering to the season. Turn your eyes to the big blue mountains all around us. Think about the size of them. They lie in wait filled with massive history.  Think about cold and warmth and the proper comforts of a winter in Seattle. Climb into bed with someone and read this to them. Hike out to the snow and think like a Cossack. Make some memories.
North Cascades, taken on my iPhone 4s. I got lucky with the light.